15 months ago, I saw Halsey live.
January 6, 2016, was quite possibly one of the best nights of my life. I can’t explain the emotion of being in that room. Just existing in the same space as her. I’ve piled together the crappy photos I shot on my old motorola phone with written fragements of what I can remember, but I can’t come close to recreating this night.
The first notes of Gasoline echoed through the room, and 3000 people erupted. The lights went dark and the whole theatre was on it’s feet, screaming, singing, and the music played, and played, and played … and we grew quiet. Breathless. Waiting.
” are you insane like me, been in pain like me… “
And then it was just her voice, and our voices, and screaming and singing and real tears streaming down my face because just in front of me, on that stage, living and breathing, her real voice echoing in my ears, raw and natural and normal, was Halsey.
Dressed in oversized t-shirts emblazoned with her name that we’d purchased half an hour before, I gripped the hands of my best friends and tilted my head back, breathing in the taste and the sound and the smell of 3000 people crammed into a two-tier theatre, bonded under pulsing lights in their love for one woman.
” you were a vision in the morning when the light came through,
I know I’ve only felt religion when I’ve lied with you “
That night, hours later, I sat on the ground in my kitchen for hours with my closest friends, laughing about nothing and editing videos together.
It was unreal. It was tears and lights and raw voices and phones and sore toes and discarded shoes and dancing in the aisle and the music that had defined the past few months reverberating in my ears in ways I hadn’t heard it before.
” and now I’m covered in the colours pulled apart at the seams,
and it’s blue. it’s blue. “
It was everything. She was everything. I just had to share it with you all.
“ this is really cool for me guys … this thing, this album, me … it shouldn’t be happening, it shouldn’t have worked out, it just wasn’t supposed to … and I don’t think I talk to you guys about it enough … I was signed to a no-name record company, for very little money, and I wasn’t even sure I was going to make an album or an EP … *audience screaming* … and I DEFINITELY didn’t think I was going to make an album that was going to go to #2 in australia … *louder audience screaming* … and I most CERTAINLY didn’t think I was going to get to come perform that album for you … *LOUDER audience screaming* … I’m serious, this is a weird thing, you guys are all sitting there, watching me, and there’s three thousand of you and there’s one of me …
but I’m here, and I’d do anything to be here. “